Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Kamu tak penat.. tapi kamu rehat...

Kamu pemalas.. tapi kamu suruh orang jadi rajin

Kamu ajak orang bermujahadah.. tapi kamu banyak bersantai...

Kamu habiskan masa di sejadah.. tapi hati kamu tak khusyuk pun pada Allah...

Kamu baca Al Quran.. tapi hati kamu tak tersentuh pun...

Kamu suruh orang berkorban.. tapi kamu sendiri takut berkorban....

Kamu kata dakwah ini susah.. tapi kenapa hati kamu sangat senang...

Kamu kata kamu dah cukup ilmu.. tapi tindakan kamu tak menggambarkan ilmu mu..

Kamu banyak masa luang.. tapi banyak masa kamu habiskan sia-sia..

Kamu keluar rumah konon untuk berjuang... tapi sebenarnya kamu cari keselesaan...

Kamu tinggalkan tanggungjawab kamu.. Kamu tinggalkan hak orang lain terhadap diri kamu.. konon2nya, kamu ada tugas besar perlu diselesaikan....

Kamu menipu orang lain... sebab kamu suruh mereka itu dan ini..

Tetapi sebenarnya....

Kamulah orang yang paling tertipu sekali....

[Na'uzubillahimin zalik]

Ya Allah, jauhkan aku dari ghurur....

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

DOA NABI DI KOTA THAIF
“ Ya Allah, kepadaMu juga aku mengadukan kelemahan kekuatanku, kekurangan siasatku dan kehinaanku di hadapan manusia. Wahai Yang Paling Pengasih, Engkau asalah Rabb orang-orang yang lemah, Engakulah Rabbku, kepada siapa hendak Kau serahkan diriku? Kepada orang jauh yang bermuka masam kepadaku, ataukah musuh yang akan menguasai urusanku? Aku tidak peduli asalkan Engkau tidak murka kepadaku, sebab sungguh teramat luas afiat yang Engkau limpahkan kepadaku. Aku berlindung dengan cahaya wajahMu yang menyinari segala kegelapan dan yang kerananya urusan dunia dan akhirat menjadi baik, agar Engkau tidak menurunkan kemarahanMu kepadaku atau murka kepadaku. Engkaulah yang berhak menegurku hingga Engkau redha. Tidak ada daya dan kekuatan selain denganMu.”

Monday, October 09, 2006

Najwa melangkah longlai menuju ke kampus. Bukan kerana penat tubuhnya, tetapi terasa jiwanya ada sesuatu yang tidak kena. Najwa terasakan dirinya ibarat belon yang tak cukup udara, tekanan atmosfera luar yang lebih tinggi memenyekkan belon itu. Ramadhan telah berlalu, separuh daripadanya. Najwa mengkontemplasi saat-saat lepas di dalam Ramadhannya kali ini, apakah yang telah dicapainya. Ditakdirkan Allah, assignments di universiti sangatlah banyak, yang kadang-kadang dia tidak mampu untuk iltizam dengan tilawah Al Quran 1 juzuk sehari. Mahupun ingin berlama-lama di atas sejadah, kerana discussion di sana sini. MP3 player berisi bacaan ayat-ayat Al Quran oleh Sheikh Mishari al Efasy menjadi peneman jiwanya yang terasa kosong.

“Ya Allah, jangan jadikan aku orang yang mensia-siakan bulan barakah ini..” Najwa mengeluh sendirian.

Penat juga dia mengenangkan, kenapa pula kelopak matanya tersangat kering. Dia juga letih mengenangkan, kenapa apabila dia membaca kalamullah tidak tersentuh jiwanya. Najwa teringat surah Al Anfal ayat 2:

“Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang beriman itu adalah apabila disebut nama Allah, bergementarlah hati mereka, dan apabila dibacakan kepada mereka ayat-ayatNya, bertambahlah iman mereka dan kepada Tuhan mereka sahajalah mereka bertawakal”

Najwa mengulangi doa yang diajarkan Rasulallah SAW.
“Ya Allah, hanya rahmatMu yang aku harapkan. Jangan tinggalkan aku sendirian walau dengan kadar sekelip mata. Perbetulkan segala urusanku. Laa ilaha illa anta (Tiada Tuhan selain engkau)” Riwayat Abu Dawud, Ahmad.
Najwa singgah duduk di satu “bench” di bawah pokok. Musim bunga kali ini dirasakan tidak membunga-bungakan iman di dalam hatinya.

“Ya Allah, hanya rahmatMu yang aku harapkan”. Dalam Najwa mengulangi doanya itu, tiba-tiba terdetik di dalam hatinya:
Benar-benarkah hanya rahmat Allah yang dia harapkan?
Benarkah hanya kepada Allah dia berharap, benarkah dia berharap Allah mengiringinya di dalam setiap urusannya.

Najwa teringat suatu peristiwa, semasa Najwa mengajak beberapa juniornya untuk mengikuti halaqah mingguan. Dia terasa sangat “excited” kerana nampak wajah-wajah baru yang ingin mendekatkan diri kepada Allah. Pada hari tersebut, Najwa dipertanggungjawabkan untuk menyampaikan tazkirah. Usai tazkirah tersebut, Siti, salah seorang juniornya berkata kepadanya, “Best la tazkirah kak Najwa...”
Najwa terasakan dadanya kembang keseronokan.

Najwa tersentak... Kelopak bunga spesis Rhododendron berterbangan ditiup angin.
“Oh.. di situlah silapnya... Benarkah aku hanya mengharapkan rahmat Allah dari amal yang aku perbuatkan? Rupa-rupanya, aku masih seronok dengan pujian. Sedangkan aku tak tahu, sama ada amal itu masih diterima Allah atau tidak.... Ya Allah, benar-benar kali ini... Hanya rahmat Engkau sahaja yang aku harapkan... Lebih baik sekiranya manusia benci aku atas usaha aku, asalkan Engkau tidak marah kepadaku”

Najwa mengenangkan, rahmat Allah sudah semestinya tersangat besar. Allah, Dialah Tuhan yang telah menyelamatkan Najwa daripada lemas di dalam paya busuk jahiliyah. Allah, Dialah Tuhan yang telah melahirkan perasaan malu dalam dirinya, lalu perasaan malu itu menyelematkan Najwa dari ikhtilat (percampuran bebas lelaki dan perempuann), lalu dengan perasaan malu itu, pakaiannya semakin sopan menepati ciri-ciri muslimah. Allah, Dialah Tuhan yang telah memilihkan teman-teman seperjuangan yang saling memperingatkan kepada kesabaran, keimanan dan mengajak kepada amalan soleh.

Najwa teringat lagi, apabila dia sibuk mengendalikan program-program islami semasa cuti musim bunga. Masya-Allah, Allah telah beri dia keizinan untuk berlari ke sana ke mari, kelam kabut, berpenat-penatan untuk memikul tugasan dakwah. Allah telah beri peluang untuk dia mujahadah. Tapi, dia kelam kabut dalam solatnya kerana ingin mengejar urusan “dakwah”nya. Dia tidak dapat iltizam dengan tilawah Al Qurannya. Dia tidak sempat berhenti seketika untuk muhasabah amalan-amalannya. Tiba-tiba Najwa tersentak lagi..

“Mengapakah kamu suruh orang lain mengerjakan amal kebaikan, sedang kamu melupakan diri sendiri, padahal kamu membaca Al Kitab? Maka tidakkah kamu berfikir?”
Najwa teringat Surah Al Baqarah ayat 44, ya benar... Dia telah melupakan dirinya sendiri. “Ya Allah, benar-benar kali ini.. aku mengharapkan Mu jangan tinggalkan aku bersendirian bersama urusan-urusanku.. walau pada kadar sekelip mata,” Najwa berharap.
Sesungguhnya manusia itu pelupa sifatnya. Manusia zalim terhadap dirinya. Hanya atas rahmat Tuhan Yang Maha Penyayang yang mampu menghindarkan manusia daripada menzalimi diri mereka sendiri.
Manusia jua mudah terasa dirinya serba cukup. Mudah sahaja terasa bahawa dia tidak perlukan sesiapa untuk membantu urusannya. Kerana dia mempunyai kepandaian, kekuatan fizikal dan kelebihan untuk mengendalikan urusan hariannya. Tetapi, manusia lupa.. Di belakang sesuatu urusan, Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Mengetahui sedang memerhatikan apa yang manusia perlakukan. Malah, Dia mengetahui apa yang berada di benak fikiran dan lubuk jiwa insan.

Najwa terkedu.

“Hah! Termenung apa tu!” Najwa disentakkan oleh temannya, Hayati.
“Awak ni, terkejut saya tau!” Najwa mencebik.
“Alah.. maaflah.. Assalamualaikum” Hayati tersengih sambil beri salam.
“Awak dah sampai ke negeri China ke tadi Najwa? Maaflah ganggu kembara angan-angan awak” Hayati memang terkenal dengan sifat suka menyakat. Walaupun begitu Hayati memang seorang yang sangat tajam pemerhatiannya.

Najwa sengih sahaja. Najwa bertanya kepada Hayati, “Kaifa imanuki? (Apa khabar iman kamu?).
Hayati senyum, “Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah... I hope to stay in Ramadhan all the time!”
Najwa sambung lagi, “Kongsi la tips. How to benefit this Ramadhan!”

Hayati melarikan anak matanya ke kiri dan ke kanan. “Err... Saya tak pandai la bab-bab kasi tips ni. Tapi, saya nak share something. Tazkirah yang saya dengar from Sheikh masa solat tarawikh kat musollah”

“Surah Al Ma’un ayat 4-5.”
“Dalam ayat 4.. Allah cela orang yang bersolat. Pelik ye, kenapa pula bila kita bersolat, yakni beribadah tetapi kita masih dicela oleh Tuhan kita. Awak rasa-rasanya kenapa, Najwa?” Hayati buat soalan KBKK pula.

“Alah, mana la saya tau... Awak citer je la” Najwa malas nak fikir.

“Okey lah, kalau kita tengok ayat 5, Allah cakap “iaitu orang-orang yang lalai di sekitar solat mereka”.. “Kalau tengok perkataan Arab ‘an solaatihim, bukannay fi solaatihim. Maksudnya, Allah cela orang-orang yang lalai di sekitar solatnya, iaitu di luar solatnya dia lalai. Bukan referring to orang yang lalai within his/her solat. As if, orang tu dah defeat the purpose of solatnya kerana solatnya masih tidak dapat melindungi dirinya daripada berbuat maksiat apabila dia selesai solatnya. Itu sebab Allah cela”

“Macam kita lah, kalau dok dalam halaqah, kita asyik cerita pasal kena amar ma’ruf nahi mungkar... Tapi kalau di luar halaqah, kita tak buat pun apa yang kita perkatakan tu.. What is the purpose of the halaqah to begin with?” Hayati berkata.

Najwa tertunduk. “Jazakillah ukhti...”

Hayati berkata, “Awak ni cam ade problem je......”

Najwa melarikan pandangannya, “Hmm.. Biasalah, hati kurang sihat.”

Hayati berkata lagi, “Alhamdulillah.. Awak masih dapat rasakan sama ada hati awak baik ke tidak. Rasulallah pernah cakap, sapa yang dalam saat imannya rendah, tapi masih berpegang kepad Sunnah baginda, sesungguhnya dia telah mendapat petunjuk”

“Iman kita memang ada up-s and –down-s. Tapi di saat down ni, sebenarnya Allah nak kasi clue kepada kita. Betapa sebenarnya seronok dan indah apabila iman kita baik. Allah nak beritahu kita bila kita tengah down ni, bahawa Allah rindu dengar kita merintih dan mengadu kepadanya..

..Sepertimana ada satu Hadith Qudsi, Allah berfirman “wahai malaikat, turunkanlah musibah ke atas hambaKu, kerana aku rindu mendengar dia merintih kepadaKu”

You know what, Najwa...Asalnya , kita tak perlu pun mengadu kat Allah dosa-dosa yang kita buat atau kejahilan yang kita buat.. Sebab Allah memang dah tau pun. Tapi Allah suruh kita doa dan mengharap kepadaNya, supaya kita lebih akrab kepada Allah” Hayati mengusap-usap kepala Najwa.

Najwa menyeka air mata. Ah! Akhirnya basah juga kelopak matanya!

Benarlah, bertafakur lebih baik daripada solat 1000 rakaat. Kini, Najwa terasa qalbunya lebih ringan. Mudah-mudahan langkahnya selepas ini mengharungi saat-saat terakhir Ramadhan, diterima oleh Allah.

Friday, October 06, 2006

"MAKA, ERATKANLAH HATI2 KAMI YA ALLAH.."

Fatah gunmen threaten to kill Hamas leaders
(news from islamonline.com)

(A group linked to President Mahmoud Abbas’ Fatah party has threatened to kill leaders of the ruling Hamas party, escalating a power struggle marked by the worst internal violence since the Palestinian Authority was formed in 1994, the BBC reported.
Twelve Palestinians have been killed and at least 100 others injured in two days of clashes between Fatah and Hamas gunmen in the Gaza Strip and the occupied West Bank.
Palestinian President Mahmoud Abbas and Prime Minister Ismael Haniya, of Hamas, have appealed for calm and said the violence must stop.
But Al-Aqsa Martyrs Brigades, an armed wing of the former ruling party Fatah, said in a statement on Monday that it held Hamas’ Damascus-based political chief Khaled Meshaal, Interior Minister Saeed Seyam and senior Interior Ministry official Youssef al-Zahar responsible for the recent deaths.
"We in al-Aqsa announce, with all might and frankness... [that we will] execute the head of the sedition, Khaled Meshaal, Said Siyam and Youssef al-Zahar, and we will execute this ruling so those filthy people can be made an example," the statement from the al-Aqsa group said.
Hamas’ legislator Mushir al-Masri accused al-Aqsa group of "pouring oil on the fire", and said that Hamas would "not show mercy" if its senior leaders were assassinated.
Meanwhile, Youssef al-Zahar said the threat wasn’t representative of the group but the work of "coup seekers who want to achieve what the Occupation (Israel) failed to do.”
“Power struggle”
Abbas and Haniya have been locked in an increasingly bitter power struggle, and have been desperately trying to form a national unity government.
The recent clashes were triggered by the Hamas-led government’s inability to pay full salaries to its workers, many of them from Fatah.
The U.S. and the EU imposed an aid embargo against the Palestinian Authority after Hamas took office in March to pressure the group to recognize Israel, give up anti-Israeli attacks and accept past peace accords with the Jewish state.
The U.S. and Israel are also pressuring Abbas to stall a coalition deal with Hamas until it accepts all their demands.
“Divide and Rule”
In Saudi Arabia, the U.S. Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice, who would also visit Egypt, Israel and the Palestinian territories, called for an end to the bloodshed in Gaza and the West Bank.
She also said that the Palestinians needed a government committed to the already existing international frameworks for peace talks, including the recognition of Israel.
"The Palestinians need to have a government that can serve their needs," Rice said.
Haniya, who reiterated calls for a return to talks on a unity government, accused Rice of trying to "divide and rule."
He also urged Arab and Muslim states "not to be dragged into following the interests and plans" of the U.S. administration.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood,
and I--I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost

Frost’s The Road Not Taken is one of my favorite poems. I learnt this poem during my high school in Malaysia as a compulsory literature piece. Human being always confronts with indecisive conditions – perplexed by verdicts with future not so sure.

So often we fell into decisions due to the influence of our environment; we are so cognizant with what will other people perceive us, until we caught in the situation that we were unable to satisfy anyone needs.

The questions that are always aroused:
Which alternative should we choose and which one is better?
Whose need should be satisfied?
What will people say if I do this or that?

Islam is to guide, not to confine human being. It is weird to see people around (I was the weird one before), try to seek fame and contentment but they only plunge themselves into destruction.

Alcohol.. Dancing till they worn out.. Drugs.. Ecstasy.. Spinning their heads in clubs..
More common situations, hanging out with friends who are also bewildered with their lifes… Finding couples (without marrying), so that they could pour out their feelings.. In return, they only got their bodies to pay.. Make-up and dress-up to impress, then see how they distress when they found someone even prettier.. Amusing life to death.. More and more, human beings throw themselves into destruction…

It is all due to Allah who grants us His Guidance. Allah gives us freedom to make decisions, but He warns in advance about what is better.

“By the Soul, and the proportion and order given to it;
Then He inspired it to understand what is right and wrong for it;
He will indeed be successful who purifies it;
And he will indeed fail who corrupts it.”
-Surah Ash Shams: 7-10


Verily, Allah’s guidance comes after what a person decide for him/herself. And then, Allah will set him a path towards what he meant in his heart. If he chooses to deviate himself from Allah, than Allah will make ease a path for him to lead him into astray. If he chooses to the truth, Allah will hold his hand and guide him to the truth.


As Muslims, we always have better alternatives. And if although it seems the choices or decisions that we made seems to have negative impacts, it is still the best! Because Allah said:

“..and it may be that you dislike a thing while it is good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is evil for you, and Allah knows, while you do not know.”
- Surah Al Baqarah: 216


Verily, for the believers, Allah said in the Al Quran that, they will neither be sad nor scared because Allah’s trials on them are never beyond their scope of handling them. There is ahadith narrated by Bukhari, “whoever Allah wants for him charity, Allah will put a trial on him.”

Allah amuses us in a way that He realizes the limitations and needs of the human beings, amuse to give a new breath for human’s life. Let you feel the fresh air of living on this earth. When you suffer from a disaster, He provides tranquility. When you need someone to listen to, He is always there to hear and to grant.

Do not desolate yourselves; don’t think that Allah does not listen to you when your wishes have not yet being endowed, because Allah gives what you need, not what you want. There are few ways that He will fulfill your wishes:

1) If Allah does not grant you immediately in this world, Allah will substitute with something better in the Hereafter.
2) If Allah does not grant you immediately, Allah will grant your wishes later at the right time, at the right place, with you in a right condition.
3) If Allah does not grant you with what you want, He actually grant you with what you need. Isn’t that better?

As I travel through different walks of life, I never find anywhere safer and comfy other than finding a place for my heart to rest. “..know that, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest” –Surah Ar Ra’d: 28.
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
"And He (Allah) found that you are in lost, and He guided you" Ad-Dhuha : 7
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood,
"Verily, We showed him the way whether he be grateful or ungrateful" Al-Insan :3
Indeed, we cannot walk straight without a straight line that guides our pace.
This straight line, and those who walk following it invites weird stares and gossips.
"Fa tuba lil ghuraba' "
The strange one will yield....
and I--I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference.
Pray for the world to choose this "strange" path....